i am DEFINITELY going to the museum of art this week. it’s got to happen. simple as that! apparently there are some alfred stiegletz original prints. among others. WAY TOO COOL TO PASS UP. i was up inordinately early. i had not woken up this early since i went camping. waking up much before 11AM is just not my cup of tea. some people find this to be amusing! i just seriously CANNOT get to sleep before 3AM, EVER, and it’s usually more like 4 or 5 when i get to bed. HOWEVER, i find today to be a fairly pleasing situation because i can go outside and take some nice photographs. take me on a walk, i want to go on a walk! but first, hash browns and orange juice.
i really enjoy the validation of being in a photography class and totally destroying all my assignments. i’ve already done one extra credit project, and i’m taking an extra credit pinhole camera class next sunday. and of course i’ve gotten 100% in my projects so far. *~*
i’m taking photography 2 next term. it has been decided. by me. i am TERRIFIED. what i am afraid of is spending ALL of my spare time in the darkroom, and letting my other classes suffer for it. no bueno! i tend to get very involved. i have developed the traits of a perfectionist in the past few years. selectively! but seriously though. there is no point in doing something if it isn’t quintessential. well, some things. other things are inconsequential, regardless.
OH BABY YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY
we sit around, eat food
and then we sit around talking about how full we are
and how delicious the food was
and then we take a group photo
and then we sit and talk about poop
HAHAHAHAHAAHHAAH
— me on society
The reason that traditionally religious people believe that humans are inherently evil is because they believe that many of the things that most people do are “sins.” Take, for instance, the idea of having sex before marriage. According to this article (http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/16287113/), more than 9 out of 10 American people have had premarital sex. Now, if I believed that sex before marriage was an evil transgression, I would agree with the statement that all humans are born with a natural “predisposition to evil” (22), because obviously almost every person around me is committing at least one evil act. However, I do not, and I also do not believe that all human beings are born wicked. If we remove the “sin” association from the types of things that a very large amount of people—who are considered to be normal—do (i.e. premarital sex, lying, atheism, etc.), then we remove the notion that we are born with an evil inkling. The only thing I can think of that warrants the title “evil” is anything that is harmful to someone else. Murder, stealing, and infidelity are a few big problems I can think of, and although they often occur, I believe that good deeds occur more frequently. Personally, I think that babies are born neutral, and absorb influence from outside forces such as the environment their parents make for them (with things like the parents’ attitudes, their voices, their interactions, etc.). As I’m sure everybody has heard, a baby is like a sponge: an empty vessel; a tabula rasa, if you will. On the potential to become “good or evil,” the book says “which they become depends partly on the quality of the training they receive and partly on the choices they make” (23). I think that the choices that they make are based on the “training” they receive, so, ostensibly, all of the credit to whether they become good or evil is due to their particular upbringing. I’d like to stress that, of course, “good” and “evil,” are relative terms, and may mean many different things to many different people, but I think, here, the overall meaning is that good people have a positive influence on their surroundings, and evil people have a negative influence on their surroundings. Essentially, the choice is ours. When it comes down to it, I can choose to be a good person or I can choose to be an evil person. I have free will, and I can bend it to my bidding. I can be a benevolent presence in the lives of the people whom I care about, or I can be a malevolent presence in their lives. I was not born wanting to be destructive or evil, and nor was I born with the desire to help people and be pleasant. Evil is a negative word, and most people just want to be happy and approved of, so truly evil deeds are relatively sparse and “goodness” prevails.
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PHOTES. i have been soups busy and not taking very many photographs… but i’m excited to turn this business in and get another 100% on my project.
i took an exam for human sexuality and got 80% due to lack of studying. i feel like SHIT about it. i am NOT okay with getting anything less than an A. anything less than the best is a felony!!!! i can not handle getting an average grade. i do not deserve an average grade. it feels subpar even though it isn’t. it’s ridiculous that i have such absurdly high expectations for myself. i don’t think i’m going to get straight A’s this term, and that makes me FURIOUS. NOT FAIR!!!!!!! study up, kaleigh cakes.
i have been doing a lot of yoga recently. it is making me feel GOOD! i missed doing yoga everyday. and i’m totally digging it again.
tonight avalon made a DELICIOUS dinner. bruschetta with pesto and mozzarella and tomatoes, chicken parmesan, mashed potatoes, and ASPARAGUS! some of my favorite things! it was scrumptious.
i have been re-watching venture bros. and i am encouraging davin to be hank venture for halloween. he says he wants to be batman, so i said BE HANK VENTURE DRESSED AS BATMAN. i personally think it’s ingenious.
today i tried to watch newsies but couldn’t because it made me feel like bawling. i hate it when i am EMOTIONALLY SUSCEPTIBLE! well, i actually don’t mind it, but i do not enjoy weeping in front of people. that is personal. private business!
i am looking forward to driving up to seattle for winter break, to see kevin and make music and party all night. again. chocolate chip peanut butter cookies, HIS NEW APARTMENT AND TV, silent hill, etc. etc.
i feel as if i’m detaching from everyone and everything as of late. i feel very divorced from the world. other people’s business does not affect me. i feel like a noiseless patient spider. wandering.
i totally had plans to do mad studying tonight, but instead i stayed up way too late having way too much fun.
dohhhhhohohohohohoho
driver license achieved - cha ching! i did super well on my test. the lady was all nice and said i did wonderfully. UHM. going camping tomorrow night. i told myself it’d be the first thing i did after i got my license. i rescheduled society accordingly. on my first drive around by myself, i was almost crying with joy and singing super loud to brandon flowers & james mercer. basically screaming. it was BEAUTIFUL. and the clouds were DOPE. also i was in avalon’s car. which is super smooth & she has a subwoofer SOOOO. yeah.
my writing class is sucking my soul. i hate my teacher. she is wretched. i can’t WAIT for next term. it will be so LOVELY compared to this bullshit. shakespeare, baking, psychology, and journalism grammar… cakewalk. cakewalk!!!! a fun cakewalk!!! the most fun in the world!!!
BLEHHHHHHeheheh tonight i got $15 worth of SAFFRON for FREE. and i sang mellow yellow all the way home.
tonight i purchased a 105mm macro lens! SUCKA MUTHAFUCKAS! i am beyond excited to get it.
and then my dad bought me a ticket to see morrissey in novemberrrrr. yes yes yes yes. daddy date. i’m excited to span some quality time with mi papa.
i am pretty stoked on life right now. LIFE, you old rascal! i was feeling very overwhelmed and now i am not. feelin’ good! feeling confident in my circumstances. and i have chosen a pretty good schedule for winter term! we’ll see how that pans out.
i’m re-watching chuck and it is a real delight. gosh. i am feeling great!
i need to get a job. a part-time job. sister giiiiiirl. i am so used to being the smartest person in the room that i am SHOCKED when i meet someone who GETS IT. i am also shocked when i have a class that is full of retards, and everyone is clueless. YA’LL DON’T KNOW HOW TO WORK A VCR? WHAT IS THIS, THE 40S?
whoa hey! i haven’t stayed up this late in a while! night night, babies.
they also told me that they liked your laugh and that you LAUGHED AND LAUGHED AND LAUGHED.
— lizzy t.
