this sucks and you know it

i said goodbye to the ocean today. it was elating. i felt like my blood was trembling with ECSTASY on the drive over. i was listening to neil young and staring out the window of the car at the BEAUTIFUL OREGON COUNTRYSIDE. so yes, it was a fond farewell. i got salt water wet. i helped build a sandcastle. i helped break a sandcastle. i took this nice self portrait. i felt good. i feel good. i feel excited. i feel dumb quivering elation like when you fall in love and it’s all so HAPPY, just happy. my future is so BIG AND BRIGHT it is kind of intimidating but also very inviting and warm and lovely. i move in 6 days. six. sex. 666. i want to curl up in the arms of my unconditionally loving future. i am going to participate in NANOWRIMO. my favorite part of it is the stupid sounding name. so stupid! so wonderful!