day 1 in the attempt to figure myself out. apparently i have very unusual speech patterns and am extremely articulate and smart. but we already knew THAT. i talked strictly about school stuff, but she seemed to glean a lot. i was on the verge of tears for the second half of our session. i’ve never felt so scrutinized. i think i was so emotional because i realized that this is an actual journey i am choosing to make, and it’s going to help me understand myself and the way i interact with others and the reasons i do the things i do. that’s pretty terrifying. it feels pivotal. just thinking of talking about my real problems made me choke up. i’m kind of reeling.
suis-je si peur de moi même?
